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This photo is from my first night in my new room. Same house, just a bigger room. I’ve settled in quite well and it took a while because I did a huge closet purge. I sized down my closet by more or less 50%. It broke my heart to let go of the archival American Apparel pieces that I valued so much but I don’t miss them because of all the space I have now.

I’ve recently come to terms with the fact that I’m serious about fashion. I used to just brush it off thinking it’s just a side thing but all my life I’ve paid so much attention to it. My love for clothes started out as a shopping addiction until I learned about the ethics and the history and how it intersects with so many things. I want to share this love with anyone who would care to listen. This love is what I want my content to manifest one day. I’ve been racking my brain lately thinking about what type of videos I want to create for my YouTube channel. When you’re a fashion youtuber, are lookbooks and favorites videos all there is? Sadly that’s become very boring to me. I want to do fashion/art/culture commentary but I’m not confident that I will be able to relay my thoughts properly. I worry about the validity of my thoughts too much.

Every day, I wake up thinking, “This is it. I’ll make a video/post today. I’ll do it,” but I never do. It’s been 5 months since my last vlog. It’s been 5 months of endless changes in my life. New job. New passion. New ideas. New room. New haircut. If I wait for my life to settle down before I post again, then I might never post again. I’ve accepted the fact that my twenties will be a period of constant changes and that the challenge is to document it as it happens rather than to wait it out.


PS. I was interviewed by Reina Bambao for The Manila Times’ Lookbook section. You can read the article here: part 1, part 2.

PPS. I really want you to watch RIAN PHIN youtube videos!


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I’ve been getting a lot of questions about these shoes ever since they made an appearance on my Instagram feed. I customized a pair of Vans Old Skools a couple of months ago. The design was heavily inspired by the Vans Style 36 sneakers GDragon wore during his 2016 SBS GAYODAEJUN performance with CL. Actually, they’re almost exactly the same, except for a few minor details. The exact style he wore was sold out everywhere and even if they weren’t, limited edition drops usually start at a men’s size 8… and I fit a women’s size 5.

My shoes cost about $90 before tax and shipping is free. It takes about 2-3 weeks for them to make your shoes and ship them to you. I honestly think the price is worth it, considering you’ll have custom-made shoes. You can customize your own Vans here.

IMG_5727PS: I made a lookbook.